Sad
16 Sunday Nov 2014
16 Sunday Nov 2014
14 Friday Nov 2014
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13 Thursday Nov 2014
13 Thursday Nov 2014
My husband still drinking and drugging closed his business 6 mo ago durning this time he was taking 1/2 days golfing drinking partying saying he deserved it he worked his ass off for years no savings no plan B I warned him. I left him for 6 weeks this summer for his drugging and abuse. He’s now looking for a job slowly I’m back home alone and he’s saying to me as I get served with papers because he had no job and I’m having a hard time dealing with stress home alone pay back is a bitch, hmmm I believe he brought this on I’m still working and actually getting extra jobs while he’s in Fla going out to dinner and drinking drugging and left me with not a dime he never tells his family the truth just what he wants them to hear ugh
12 Wednesday Nov 2014
So it’s a year I thought I would pick up my chip want to go to a meeting and have people clap but I don’t it’s just me talking to God saying thank you on my face. This is just something I could never do on my own and I will make a meeting but not until we, God and I are done and no I’m not a religious person I’m just a girl who drank too much who begged God to do what she couldn’t and he answered. ❤️
10 Monday Nov 2014
08 Saturday Nov 2014
So last year today I was in the hospital from drinking. I have been sober since minus one bad weekend 😊 I feel great about my sobriety but today is a very somber one I have spent it alone my son is cooking me dinner after my AA meeting this song is one of my favorites minus the beer lol 😘
Enjoy
Made a wrong turn once or twice
Dug my way out, blood and fire
Bad decisions, that’s alright
Welcome to my silly life
Mistreated, misplaced, misunderstood
Miss ‘No way, it’s all good’
It didn’t slow me down.
Mistaken, always second guessing
Underestimated, look I’m still around
Pretty, pretty please, don’t you ever, ever feel
Like you’re less than fucking perfect
Pretty, pretty please, if you ever, ever feel
Like you’re nothing, you’re fucking perfect to me
You’re so mean (so mean) when you talk (when you talk)
About yourself. You were wrong.
Change the voices (change the voices) in your head (in your head)
Make them like you instead.
So complicated,
Look how we all make it.
Filled with so much hatred
Such a tired game
It’s enough, I’ve done all I could think of
Chased down all my demons
I’ve seen you do the same
(Oh oh)
Pretty, pretty please, don’t you ever, ever feel
Like you’re less than fucking perfect
Pretty, pretty please, if you ever, ever feel
Like you’re nothing, you’re fucking perfect to me
The whole world’s scared, so I swallow the fear
The only thing I should be drinking is an ice cold beer
So cool in lying and we try, try, try but we try too hard
And it’s a waste of my time.
Done looking for the critics, cause they’re everywhere
They don’t like my jeans, they don’t get my hair
Exchange ourselves and we do it all the time
Why do we do that, why do I do that (why do I do that)?
(Yeah! Oh!)
Oh, pretty, pretty, pretty
Pretty, pretty please, don’t you ever, ever feel
Like you’re less than fucking perfect
Pretty, pretty please, if you ever, ever feel
Like you’re nothing, you’re fucking perfect to me
(You’re perfect, you’re perfect)
Pretty, pretty please, if you ever, ever feel
Like you’re nothing, you’re fucking perfect to me.
06 Thursday Nov 2014
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04 Tuesday Nov 2014
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02 Sunday Nov 2014
I don’t wanna be the girl who laughs the loudest
Or the girl who never wants to be alone
I don’t wanna be that call at 4 o’clock in the morning
‘Cos I’m the only one you know in the world that won’t be home
Ah the sun is blinding
I stayed up again
Oh, I am finding
That’s not the way I want my story to end
I’m safe
Up high
Nothing can touch me
But why do I feel this party’s over?
No pain
Inside
You’re my protection
How do I feel this good sober?
I don’t wanna be the girl who has to fill the silence
The quiet scares me ’cause it screams the truth
Please don’t tell me that we had that conversation
I won’t remember, save your breath, ‘cos what’s the use?
Ah, the night is calling?
And it whispers to me softly come and play
Ah, I am falling
And If I let myself go I’m the only one to blame
I’m safe
Up high
Nothing can touch me
But why do I feel this party’s over?
No pain
Inside
You’re like perfection
How do I feel this good sober?
I’m coming down, coming down, coming down
Spinning ’round, spinning ’round, spinning ’round
Looking for myself – SOBER [x2]
When it’s good, then it’s good, it’s so good till it goes bad
Till you’re trying to find the you that you once had
I have heard myself cry, never again
Broken down in agony just tryna find a friend
Oh Oh
I’m safe
Up high
Nothing can touch me
But why do I feel this party’s over?
No pain
Inside
You’re like perfection
How do I feel this good sober
Oh Oh
I’m safe
Up High
Nothing can touch me
But why do I feel this party’s over?
No pain
Inside
You’re like perfection
How do I feel this good sober?
Will I ever feel this good sober?
Tell me, No no no no no pain
How do i feel this good sober?